Its a Yes!

Its a Yes!

I can’t even believe myself!

I got a Yes!

I’m So shocked! and So happy! I can’t explain what I feel! Its mixed!

May 17th 2008.  9:50:15 PM 

Its a YES! 

Latest Pics with my Berry.

I looked like I didn’t had enough sleep the night before we had taken this pic. haha. We we’re listening to the BerryPod and Bianca somehow managed to took some pics of us… haha.

FRUSTRATED.

You want to think and say that you have everything you need, but then you realize that something is missing, someone is missing… and once you think you’ve found it, it goes and disappears on you and you don’t understand what to do or even where to start looking for that missing piece of the puzzle. You sit at home in lonely frustration and you just wait…wait…and wait. No where to look, no one to look for…

a manic monday indeed.

I woke up this morning with a headache..

why? co’z I slept at 4.30AM. I only had 3-4 hours of rest and now, Its a very boring and busy day.  Nakakinis. Sobra. 

I was so Wrong..

Well, I knew about the truth ayt?

But, She said, Things has Changed… She Loves me now..

I was so shocked.. I thought I was just dreaming or Imagining things up. But It was True.. so True.. drastic changes has occured these past few days. She became more sweeter than ever on her text messages. She now calls me Baby unlike before, last week, when she still refuses to call me that name co’z of its "double-meaning". So, what happened?

I don’t know actually.  I’m still in state of shock. 

Last March 24th, I got a chance to meet her dad that night. It was just a simple hello and good evening greeting and I don’t know if it made an impact or what.

March 28th,

After my Mapua Admission Exam (which I actually Failed), I was on the FX. and was on my way home. We we’re exchanging text messages, we talked a lot and all of a sudden, we discussed about the "meeting-of-the-parents" thingy. she said, She doesn’t want me to make a move to meet them co’z her mom might get mad at her so I said, I’ll Make a Way.

The next day, March 29th, 

It was a normal day for me, I woke up early and ate breakfast and we started to exchange text messages again. at 10:56 AM, I received a message from her asking me what to do co’z her PC hanged up and automatically shuts down itself. So, I called her up  and asked her to do some checks and everything but, she said she had a hard time understanding what I am asking her to do so,  She gave her phone to her Dad and when i heard her Dad’s voice, gee, you can’t imagine. I was so nervous that my heart beats faster than ever. OMG. Anyway, I talked to her Dad and explained everything and told him to do the checks and after a few minutes, her Dad said, He can’t do it on his own and asked me If he could just bring their PC here in our home or he’ll just pick me up here. I replied and said, No, I’ll just go there and fix their PC. so, he said Okay. so, He gave the phone to Bianca and we talked again. I asked her to do the CMOS reset thingy and all of a sudden, her PC went alive and started again. after a while, she thanked me and ended our phone conversation. We continued to exchange text messages and after a while, she has mentioned that the Internet went offline and maybe the cable company is having a maintennance whatsoever. She told me that the Link Led Light of her Cable Modem wasn’t flickering or blinking and her Lan Card shows no sign of connectivity whatsoever So, I told her I’ll just drop by and see if I can fix the Problem. I made a huge bluff about lending a friend some dvds just to cover up my true intention. But, She said No and Its Okay. I told myself, well, I miss her a lot and I want to talk to her through YM.. So, after my parents went off to cavite, I hurriedly took a nice bath and changed my clothes and maked my way to Angono where she lives. I got off to Shopwise Antipolo to buy Ice cream and took a 10 Minute Tricycle ride to Mahabang Palay, Angono while I was on the way, I called her that I was coming and she said, "Nakakainis ka! bakit ka pupunta dito?!" I told her I just want to make a visit and check her PC. after a while she said she’ll just prepare and hunged up the phone.. 10 minutes has passed and I found myself standing infront of their House and was yelling "Tao Po!" and then, after a few seconds, the gate opened and Her Grandpa or Papang was asking me if I was her classmate. I politely greeted him and told him Yes and he welcomed me and told me to get inside. upon reaching the main Entrance, I saw this Cute, Pretty and somehow irritated girl and yes, It was Bianca. OMG. She threatened me that her Grandma will be "interrogating" me and I’m in trouble. I answered back to her and I said, Its Okay. I’m Prepared although I’m not really Prepared to be asked certain questions at that time. and so, we went to the receiving area, and I saw Krish, her younger sister. she greeted me with a smile ang greeted me, Hello, Kuya! and then we went to the sofa and sat down. after a few minutes of waiting, Her Dad came and then Her Mom and after a minute, Her Grandma. Gee.. It was Indeed a Meeting-of-the-Parents and GrandParents. they asked me certain questions and served me with a delightful snack. Bianca was sitting beside me and gee.. I think she feels uncomfortable and afraid or something i really don’t know. Several minutes has passed and her dad and grandma started to show me their Photo Albums and her Baby Pictures as well. I came accross with this pic and I saw, that Bianca was a Beauty Queen! haha! She won a Beauty Contest when she was still a young kid. Her Grandma began to tell me stories and I really had a good time listening to those funny stories. gee.. haha.. after an hour or so, they left us alone together in the Living room. I was just Chatting with Bianca for about 20-30 Minutes. and then I asked her If I could start fixing their PC. so, we went upstairs with krish and I rushed infront of her PC. after 20-30 minutes its done. the cause was a faulty Cat5E Patch wire and a wrongly installed LAN Card. gee.. I sat down for a while and rest. after 10 minutes, I told them I will be going home since it was already 8:30 and its very Late. Bianca’s Parents Invited me to have dinner and I accepted their offer. I sat at the chair with Bianca beside me. We we’re eating dinner together at their home. OMG. It was a very unforgettable moment for me. After a couple of minutes, We finished our Lovely meal and I politely said my goodbye and greetings to them and made my way back home to this filthy house.

When I got home, I sent her a message, she told me that she was online. So, I hurriedly grabbed my laptop and logged on to YM. we talked a lot again and I gave her a Testimonial on friendster. She also replied me witha testimonial and here it is:

hay naku aso..este ___? I just want to say that no one has done such an effort in meeting my parents or my folks for that matter,you’re the 1st one to that thing. You have indeed outdone urself. naks!! I’ll visit naman your house sometime..bwahaha! I was mortified to see those pictures yesterday since It has been a very long time since I have seen those. We both wore matching striped t-shirt, well for me it’s a tunic. Let me tell you that no one has been so makulit and bad to me except you-sabi mo bad ka diba? joke. ANyway,I really appreciate you coming to our humble abode last night and for fixing my pc. AStIG talaga. Wish ko lang di makita ni Ate Rachelle picture..itago mo naman! Adik. It’s a good thing that my CUDDLES didn’t bite you or else tht owuld cost me extra! lol! take care. stay in touch aso!

I forgot to mention that she gave me a copy of her graduation picture. I thought, she’ll be giving me a copy of the smallest size but hell no, she gave me a wallet size! so I was so happy!.

Well, I’m a bit sleepy now co’z Its already 3:47AM on the clock.. so just read my next post.. ^^ 

listen to the rain..

I got a new name for my blog…

Its been a while since I last updated this blog.. I was so happy these past few weeks that I even forgot that this blog exists in the WWW. So, now, I don’t have a Problem like before. but there is something that bothers me. 

So, Last Night, we had our so called farewell party. it was fun and cool. everyone was in the mood to party. all of them are so damn happy except for me. I really don’t have plans to attend the said event. Yes. I paid the 250 Peso Contribution, got a new short pants and set my mind to it. but, all of a sudden, my mind changed.

So, what happened last night?. well, may nalaman ako. so, anu yun?. well, Its the TRUTH. So, what is it? Well, Its a Pity not a Chance. Yun. I have already concluded that I its not really a chance. Yes.

what am I thinking now. Well, my mind is blank.. and the color is not white. its black. Pure Black. Its so hard to face the truth. yes. but, what can I do?. I don’t have a choice but to face the reality that Its 101% Impossible.

So, I got a new Plan. A Plan for my Recovery. If this works out, I’ll accept the Fact of Reality in a much easier and nicer way. 

502 Proxy Error MY ASS!

damn, i’m so pissed off with the Web.Com.ph’s Customer service.

They always tell you, "it will take 4-24 Hour Propagation Period for your domain to Point to your servers"

DAMN.

21 Hours Passed. and still, NOTHING HAPPENS.

The Operator seems to be like a Tape Recorder, always telling the clients to wait. wait and wait.

Yes, I know it will take some time for the DNS to propagate but hey, I need to finish our ONLINE YEARBOOK, FAST!

DAMN. WHAT A DAY. 

the best choice.

I already accepted the fact that I don’t even have a single chance.

Yes. That’s true. I already started to get things back to normal. I started to divert my mind to other things. I started to Plan for my annyoung.ph webbie. I’m starting to get rid of her from my mind. 

Here’s my plan,

1st. 

I will still continue my "pangungulet" thingy. but, I’ll ask her to tell me pag sila na nung guy so that I could start to stop that "pangungulet" thingy and try to move on with my melancholic life.

2nd.

I will be back to my  Development for Annyoung.ph. So that I could stop thinking about her and think of the CODES and HTML. ^^

3rd. 

In the next few days, I’ll try to stop texting her for a while. until she forgets me. well, so do I. I’ll stop making calls and I’ll be using my other YM account. so, wala ng kuneksyon.

4th.

Aadikin ko ulet ang mga Korean Novelas. I’ll be a K-drama addict again.  

So, yun yung plans ko para makalimot.  I know it will be too hard for me. pero, Kaya Yan.

today’s GMs.

Read this:

The Craziest thing I DID for Love:

I kept on Loving the Person..

who’s dying to

GET ME OUT of (his/her) Life.. 

No one can exactly understand

how my heart feels when it’s

breaking…

It is mine alone…self-contained…

unintentionally

unshared… 

What’s complicated and Why does it Hurt?

It’s when you don’t know where you stand in a Person’s Life;

It’s when you’re hanging in dead air and knowing you can be thrown off anytime.

It’s when you’re like more than Friends but not really.

and,

It’s like you are Lovers when its really otherwise.

Sometimes you would want to wish to have never met that person at all but, at the back of your mind, you are thankful you had

What a very emotional day for me. I don’t want to talk to her but I miss her a lot. but I can’t talk to her like before. Things has changed since last night. I already said I’ll stop. and I don’t want to talk to her anymore. I don’t even want to see her at school. but, what can I do. we still got 6 more days before I’ll stop seing her around. I don’t like to extend the days that’s why I’m planning NOT to attend our farewell party. Its too painful for me and yet she is still texting me like nothing happened last night. I need some time to erase her from my memory. maybe a month or so will do. I really Love her a lot. but, I need to let go for good. 

I got so many Problems here at home. I’m so Depressed. tapos, heto, Panibago.

Good Luck to Me. 

Sun Microsystems to sell ‘virtual’ Windows PCs

from: Reuters | First Posted 12:25:00 03/08/2008

BOSTON — Sun Microsystems Inc. plans to introduce software and hardware to create "virtual" Windows and Linux personal computers that can be accessed via desktop machines, laptops and cell phones, a company executive said on Friday.

"We are going to announce (it) soon," said Steve Wilson, a Sun vice president involved in the project.

Companies will host the PCs on server computers at data centers using software that Sun has developed. They can be accessed via a $200 desktop hardware package from Sun, which includes a monitor, he said.

"It gives you instant access anywhere," he said.

He discussed the product in an interview with Reuters.

Sun will be joining Citrix Systems Inc, VMware Inc and several privately held companies that hope to establish footholds in the fledgling field of virtual personal computing.

VMware has already turned its technology for virtual servers into a business that generates sales of about $350 million in its most recent quarter. Now companies are looking to build the same kind of industry out of virtual PCs.

One selling point of virtual PCs is that businesses can manage them from centralized data centers, instead of requiring techs to travel to locations where workers access their computers.

They promise that hardware, such as Sun’s $200 desktop, will be cheaper than a typical PC.

Plans call for workers to access their virtual machines from multiple pieces of hardware. So rather than an employee syncing a desktop PC with a laptop, he or she can access the same virtual PC from both pieces of equipment, or even from a cell phone or Blackberry

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damn, this will be so cool. virtualization of PCs. I wonder if it will perform greater than a regular desktop PC.  

Good Bye.

Thank you for the memories these past few days. It made me happy.

Yes. Its true. Nothing means something. I lied when i said that to you last night.

I was so upset and I was crying.

I’ve never been in love so much like this before. and I’m so stupid for being like this.

Its so Painful you know. but I have to let go. Co’z I know you don’t like me.

I’m so Sorry if Imade you cry last night. Don’t feel guilty. Its Okay. Really. No need to worry about me.

It will take me some time to forget you but, I know I can do it even if its too painful for me.

He’s very luck to have you. I wish you all the best.

Good Luck and Good Bye. 

annyeong.

Good bye and Good luck.

It will be Okay. ^^. 

Tell Me! Tell Me!

Tell Me by Wonder Girls has become HUGE/HIT phenomena & trend in South Korea due to their catchy tunes and cute dance choreography. People say the song and the dance moves are "addicting". Everyone from kids, elementary/middle/high school/college (boy/girl) students, soldiers, policemen, to just everyday people are particpating in this hit by showing off their bad, okay to good dance skills!

They are just having fun with it! so should yoU! But this video gets little gay at the end. uhhh.. -__-'’ 

올린날짜: 2008년 03월 05일

Day 2 at Puerto Galera.

jetski, trekking, scuba, rock climbing, beach parties, what else?

damn, this is so cool! haha.

Animo LaSalle!

I got accepted at the De LaSalle-College of Saint Benilde!

I’m so happy! 

click the link below to see the damn result!

CLICK HERE!

Clazziquai - Lover Boy

this song is so cool! its my favorite. 

what a day.

I lost all my files here at my dandy PC. 

the Thesis Files are gone.

now what? I’ll start from scratch again! damn.

Thanks, JiEun!

You’re so funny JiEun!

Thanks for being my friend!

i guess. it’s a hopeless case.

i read the damn message. and it left a big hole inside me.

that was too much. OA na. to the fact na i was called a "shallow-minded" person to the fact that its not so true.

she’s the one who is supposed to be named as a very "shallow-minded" and "arrogant" person. not me. i ain’t talking no more about the sit. to her. co’z things might get overacted again. that was one hell of a gm and she all made things more complicated.

 i thought she was a good friend. she even said i’m her so-called "new bestfriend" but, i think that was only a joke and she didn’t really mean it.

a true friend doesn’t do things like that. kahit na magkagalit pa kayo with each other. as for me, i didn’t mention her name on that damn BB. but, take a look at her actions. she mentioned it to the whole class, sent trillions of GMs to everyone and posted nonsense things on her BBs.

FYI, my friend. friendster is a social networking site created for PEOPLE. everyone can use it and its features with freedom. and everyone was a given by our constitution a right of freedom of expression.

that BB of mine is not a junkie. it makes sense. i’m just tellingpeople of what i feel that day. i didn’t mention any traces of your identity on that damn bb. 

i’m not pissed off or mad or whatever.

i’m just disappointed. 

that was too much.

that was too much.

a warfreak yeah. she’s definitely one hell of a warfreak.

i really thought she’s a friend. but i realized, she’s not. that was too much of her to do such unnecessary things. calling me names like dollface or whatever.

i’m really disappointed. 

i’m now on my 98% recovery and its day four.

i need to talk to her to show her what i really feel.